The afterwards

It is very common to say that people learn from their experience. I never wanted to say that this time I have learned that way.

I do not have the words to explain the way I am feeling right now, the closest one is “stupid, the greatest ever”.

I thought that I was too smart to act the way I did. My life has changed. I am confused, I just have made the biggest mistake ever. I wish I could time travel and go to the past and change the way I acted.

I only have short memories of what happened, I do not even remember how it happened! I am just thankful about how things got solved. I do not even recognize myself when I look in the mirror, I am ashamed.