Move along

It all started with a terrible night… the worst I’ve ever had in my 22 years. I didn’t have nightmares at all, I just couldn’t sleep because of what I did. I’ve having this problem of dealing with my emotions, they are hard to handle, I cannot control them at all, they drive my life. Yesterday I made one of the biggest mistakes I will ever made, and the problem is that I thought that I was going to face it but I couldn’t. I’m already smashed into pieces.

Pfff words cannot come to my mind anymore… I’m jumping into conclusions again, the fact is that I already know the answer… don’t ask me why, I just know it… she’s going to dismiss my proposal… I had one shot and I lost it… so fast, so silly…

Again everything is dark, again my life is nonsense.

Why do you live?

Last week a friend of mine, asked me: why do you live? he didn’t wait for my answer and he replied: I live to be happy, and then he asked again: why do you live? I lied and answer: I also live to be happy… but the truth is that I’m not doing a lot of things that make me feel happy. 

I could split my life in two different parts: the professional and the “day to day life”. In the first one, I think that I’m more than a happy man, I’ve been fulfilling my goals, one by one. On the other side, the "common life… pfff that’s another story, I try hard to be happy in this one, but I cannot… last night I was thinking about the reasons, probably there are several, but I guess I found the most important: her.

I really really really cannot understand her, she’s difficult so difficult… maybe I should let her go, and this time for real.

Yesterday was a terrible night, but today the sun is shining.

*yesterday I found this image… “a shoot to the conscience”

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Hallo Oksana!!!
Wie geht es dir?
Danke für die Kurs Information, ich finde sehr wichtig. Was machst du in das Wochenende? Ich habe zwei Plane, erste ins Kino gehen, zweite ins Theater gehen. Hast du Zeit? Ich finde die Idee für das Theater fantastisch aber Welche Plane du findest super?
Ich warte auf die Antwort.
Danke,

 

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